Revelation is a hard book for me and I am always glad to get through it. I've done a study on it and still I balk a bit when it's time once again to journal John's mysterious visions. But today I have to eat my words. It came like a slam dunk through the bucket and was just what I needed to hear.
Rev. 3:8 says, "I see what you've done. Now see what I've done. I've opened a door before you that no one can slam shut. You don't have much strength, I know that; you used what you had to keep my word. You didn't deny me when times were rough."
Well, the church of Philadelphia certainly must have had a much rougher time than what I did! Of course! But this verse still stands for my small incident which sent me into a battle with envy! It may be hard to believe, but I envied the love my children have for one another, so deep their love for each other.
God saw me through it and brought forgiveness and peace.
However, now I must live with this new admission. I had wanted the first place within the family and was resentful that I would never have it. At the same time, I was in great sorrow at the discovery of my sin. When my heart burst with sadness and shame, God came and opened the door back to Him.
So, I will live in gladness as I remember that moment of pain and continue to reach for God's help in adjusting and for wisdom to accept the worth that I do have among my children. Perhaps, after all, I had something to do with the love they have for each other, for their wonderful father, and for their God, first of all.
I'm so grateful God picked me to mother this loving family! Thank you, God!
I looked to see what God had done for me...and I am so very glad!
From a friend in the battle of life...Jo
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